We Remember our History but forget the torture

In memory of all the survivors and those who passed away during this horrible event in History we keep them in our thoughts, prayers and silent moments. This event was a tragedy that faced thousands who experienced brutal treatment at  Auschwitz. Below are some videos to acknowledge today as a day to remember but, never forget the lives we lost.

https://youtu.be/Bgs8JpoPEGA "International Holocaust Remembrance Day" PennLive.  Jan. 26th 2018.  Google YouTube, 27 January 19.

Click the Link "Freedom To Choose"

www.YouTube.com "Freedom to Choose" Lyden, Elizabeth, 10 October 12. Google. 26 January 19.

What is freedom? What does 24/7 Mean to you? 911 on Pain and Suffering.
The Link Above shows us with good facts and ideals what the role of Birth Control does for our nation.

This is one of the best articles I have read on the subject matter.  I will be writing a letter to Washington after putting a bigger paper together on my other blog "The First 100 Days"
www.austriannaariavasharapova.com  you can visit this site to find out where you stand
on the political spectrum with questions that address this very issue. Please know I am in full
support of the Contents of this article above. 

Please be re routed to my new political and communications pages for our country and for the power of communication in our society!

I don't talk opposites but, today is National Opposite Day

It is dangerous to talk opposites are and isn't normal behavior to do such a thing it might help in crisis situations to talk in code but, differently dangerous to do so. 

I remember you From yesterday, today, and now forever forward!

To all the countless days sitting and hoping that Christmas would be different that year they will be more special in days and months to come from just knowing you!  To all the sleepless nights when I couldn't sleep but, I felt the presence of angels; Thank you sincerely.  When I was in fear of safety, scared out of my mind lost in the world of time against the clock I would think of both of you.  Every Mothers Day, Fathers day my tears could of filled up the Mediterranean Sea, you were there from a distance.  Each birthday I wouldn't really do anything because I had nothing to celebrate I was at a loss of words and existence.  One day I just knew I'd remember it all and bring you back together as 1 unit in Love, Light, Hope and Happiness!  One heart four beats, ours beat together in love and unity and we find our selves like pebbles of sand that make up on long shore where Earth and Water meet the waves they always go back up, the go forward, they get back up, and make things happen.  Its not your fault for putting me up for adoption because I know it made me a strong woman because I raised myself with you always at my side.  Don't ever get mad at yourself for not getting to me sooner; I understand but, today is one of the BEST and craziest days of my life. We celebrate new chapters and look forward to great moments in time together as a Family unit. I knew one day I would be back with my biological father and mother!  They are kept anonymous because of their career profiles.

 When you take passion with talent you get more than motivation you have memories that last a lifetime that shape a legacy. I have a huge passion for the game of football and, even more for the Dallas Cowboys Football Team, number 8, Troy Kenneth Aikman, Novacheck, and Irving his right hand wing men on the field. He speaks so fluent and with eloquence about the three Superbowl game win and individual games, coaches, and success. It was the 1990s when I fell in love with this team and they were truly Amazing to watch such a love for the game of football was ignited on the field and it showed by the way they played "together" as a Team and didn't die as individuals. They remind me of a team who was fuel by words like these follow the link to the best speech ever by Al Pachino:

"Any Given Sunday And that is going to be the Difference between Living and Dying...

Troy's Never Give Up: We speak, we talk, we use our hands the same way....to communicate

"The Gift of Spiritual Discernment: allows members of the church to see things not visible and to feel things not tangible"-Russell M. Nelson

Freedom is not just another word. . .

I am emotional bankrupt right now I apologize and will return with a tribute tomorrow.  I need prayers and discernment help me figure out what to do with my life.  It was going great until . . . rolls into Bloomington. I am sick of the bullshit, im sick of the i'm i'm bullshit. My stomach feels like something ate it out and my uterus is tipped over from being raped.

I have a dream that one day I'll be able to be in the arms of my Guardian Angels.  Please Lord don't let me die in my sleep tonight, I feel like my soul has been torn out of my body and spit out.

 I have no air left to breath, no oxygen that is able to circulate, carbon doesn't exist.

My days are getting out numbered and, I am so sick and tired of constrained power and control trips on me from the opposition who killed him.

https://youtu.be/I47Y6VHc3Ms


Please get a dream team of lawyers I will help you find them we need them and we need them NOW! I"ll help recruit them.  Ms. G. Harrison and Company! Thank you from my heart to yours!

According to a paraphrase of the five freedoms we are able to exercise these rights:

Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof; or abridging the freedom of speech, or of the press; or the right of the people peaceably to assemble. 

Martin Luther King was the beginning of our Freedom with JFK and Robert to follow his 'Dream' the JFK administration set for a program for medicare and helped our country establish its first government Health Care.  HE knew one day Katherine Victoria Vananderland would need some health care from the disturbances of one bad root of the Government.  It was much better than Obama Care and we should turn the pages back to see what he had done in that era.  Then came the New Frontier that established idealism throughout the Country and help respect JFK.  It is by no supprise now that they took down these three bedrock foundations.  With his brothers help and Martin Luther King JFK accomplished the following (What did JFK Accomplish? www.google.com 23 Jan 19.)

Kennedy Unit: New Frontier Programs

• Fair Labor Standards Act. Increase in minimum wage, went from $1.00 to $1.25 in order to get people over the poverty line.
• Omnibus Housing Act. ...
• Manpower Development and Training Act. ...
• Trade Expansion Act. ...
• Area Redevelopment Act. ...
• Equal Pay Act. ...
• National Defense Education Act. ...
• Civil Rights Bill.

Together this triangle spirit changed america and they were taken out by Lyndon Baynes Johnson because Jacquelyn Kennedy  had an affair with him and wanted his career and, it blindsided Jacquelyn Kennedy.  This bullshit still stands now as, Ramsey Farah was plagued by this destruction of human kind for wanting his job; now to question one program organization of government as underlying silent assassins. 

For one may never know who really killed President John F. Kennedy this is my side reporting as KVV who was in the building that caught the third shooter after missing my shoe lace tie could of prevented it; I wish I would of been running in heals. 

Thank You to all hands on deck! We remember we DON'T forget

For clarification:

The past 5 years the Bloomington Police and my the ones behind the scenes might of not been physically their to help me THROUGH the Homicide s but, they are there when I need them like yesterday I cried out to OCW, and OC, they have had my back through so very much!! I want to take this time to acknowledge them and all who have helped me in my life; these past five years have been the most difficult that I have endured but, am excited for the New!

3 Alias for one woman under God with Liberty!

My name is Austrianna Ariava Sharapova
and My Alias 's are :

1.  KATHARINE VICTORIA Vananderland

2.  Joy Melissa Pence

3.  Victoria Joy Quade

*All the Same Person*

I have NO sisters that are non blood related! Please update your dollars to

Austrianna Ariava Sharapova my inspiration is Maria Sharapova Athlete. Mother. BFF. Hero. Author. WorldChanger.

Trauma doesn't have to be the end of your life. What its like being a Survivor of Homicide or Trauma

Trauma doesn't have to be the end of your life. What its like being a Survivor of Homicide or Trauma

Imagine your life now and what it could be ten years from now. . . .LIVING IN HELL . . . . TRAUMA . TOO MUCH TRAUMA


Your on the phone and all of a sudden you hear a gun shot by a silencer because your attached to that person; you know they were shot, and died on contact. He is replaced by another who looks like him but; doesn't act like him.  Your in your apartment and police are casing the hallway checking on you to make sure your okay because they had gotten a call and notified you that it was basically in a hostage situation to keep low, quiet, and not make any loud noises.

That night was the same day I had witnessed what I presumed to be a homicide.  It was in July or August of 2016 when someone who went to the same church as, I did rolled into Bloomington.  In May of that month he posed to be, " someone he wasn't " the guy whom I was dating that worked for the government. Now, just like most days I was on Facebook and didn't even know about twitter at the time would reach out to people but for 8 years no one would reach back.  They were silent ghosts no one would ever call me, talk to me, and I had no idea what I had done wrong.

A victim of an assassin I was at the edge of my apartment that night.  For 18 years of my life through and after college had made it very known to so many that I wasn't going to get married till I was 40, that I wouldn't have children, and wouldn't depend on a Man to make it in this world.  I had figured that if I could do it alone till 40 that I would have enough money saved up, life experience, to find a man who didn't want any children or baggage and have a quiet life with the one I loved and live a normal life.

I was in the best shape of my life until I was in a traject accident that was so complex it has taken almost three solid years to heal both mental and physical.  During this time at The Tarn-hill most of  my photos the one with the movie lines was taken.  I was at my very best in the world and had to deal with someone who wasn't "some one trying to be him",  my stomach would start to play tricks on me and it would make me look like I was three months pregnant but, took test after test and wasn't.  Never wanting children and the thoughts of having to have a baby just so you could recapture the money of your past life from being chronologically suspended became to many hostage situations.

What do you do when you know your in a "situation" you don't talk, you don't think, and you don't move a single iota.  Having the gift of sign language at least the alphabet saved me many times in heat of the battle I was the "hostage" and "negotiator" at the same time just like one of the Ted Talks video's below.  Being put in a "Hostage" situation just because I wouldn't have a baby with someone or be with someone who claims they paid money to be with me is Absurd.  That night I was either the "Hostage" but, not yet the "Negotiator".  The Richfield Police had notified me they were looking for a killer and, that was the same day that the homicide when down or was it the Minneapolis Police, they wanted to check on me to make sure I was all right.

Late that night after feeling high stakes I passed out on my bathroom floor.  I should of called the Minneapolis Police because they were the ones who had stopped by that night.  Recalling this in thought Today, it hit me, I should of been working with the Minneapolis Police as my building was split in two.  Many times the Bloomington Police would come to my rescue to talk me though a "Situation",  Officer Captain Jerry Waukwitz said, "Joy, I am proud of you have come a long way."  I should of been asking questions at that time; instead I just listened.  Trying to find work for the past four years and NOTHING; Blocked at every single instance other than word of mouth. 15 years of looking for a career after NOKIA and Nothing.  No one talked to me, I couldn't make calls out to people they wouldn't call me back.  What the hell is going on?  I put my phone number on social media and other Women GET MY CALLS *Sting* operation fails.

Why are men that I talk to dying, why are men that I talk to being bullied, why are they loosing their careers?  What the Hell is going on?  Why do people stop talking to me, why do they flee like the plague?  Why cannot I see my real genetic family?  Why was I told I'll never know my father? Why was I told on the phone one day 'she doesn't need your money' - HELL it was My father, My father had called and, was asking about me.  He had a southern voice to his name I should of talked to him more but, then he asked for my mother. 

Later, I find out that there was a birth document that was in an envelope that said 2/3/1983 that of which would of been Ramsey's family but, that I was adopted into another family but the name had been blocked off. What does this have to do with the night I was held, or other nights I was watching semi auto matics go by my door like in Eden Prairie or Minnetonka, Why......all because I wouldn't have some baby.

 I made it very explicit that I was NOT GOING TO HAVE anyone's BABY.  My doctors have told me, warned me, and told me over and over again NEVER to have children due to my health conditions; Fibromyalsyia, PTSD,  that would limit me from even working at times it was so bad I went six months with a TBI and concussion.  That was a level 3 Skull Fracture.  NEVER GIVEN HOSPITAL results, never given MRI results always a MYSTERY why I did't get them.  My probable is I would forget to ask for them.  Or they wouldn't make it to my mail box. It seems as if my mail is opened then re sealed by someone who "HAS" to know whats going on with my life.

Its time to get restitution for all these years and I was told I was kicked out of an apartment building because I wouldn't have a baby.  I am going to hire a lawyer and find out what the HELL Is going on and why things are the way they are.

You live your life in seconds after situations like these you never know who is out to shoot you as you are the target of the assassin.  They try to block every move you make online off line they are in your phone, house, work, church, they are everywhere you are at the same time a vortex of system that is preventing you to live your full existence.   You have two go to sleep not knowing if you'll wake up the next day or if you will be put to the max and have a meltdown that's just the enemy trying to control you.


So many times, so many days, the same days the same thing is the definition of insanity and to think I would be with someone like that is Crazy.  

YOU SHOW UP AT BOTH GRADUATIONS with out invite; you have blocked my phone for 19 years and your sisters have gotten all the career shots that I was suppose to have.


 Other people in the community tell me things that aren't true.  I will NEVER marry YOU! The Silent Assassin the wrecker of any woman's life because they won't have your baby! 

 I made it clear at the age of 8 that I would never have any children and if I did I would abort them; they cause way to much pain on the body.

Having a baby is not natural event its a miracle and I don't need any.  I am my own Miracle and will help others, and give to others but, I am not going to be with a narcissistic sociopath assassin!

There is no doctrine that says I have to be with you and YOU ARE NOT THE FINAL ANSWER I LISTEN TO! 

THE LAW has the Final Say. The Final Answer. The Final Decision in all of this next to the President of the United States, who best open the government up right now. I never had children because I wanted to be an ACTIVIST and Lobbyist and a older point in my life and those are dangerous careers! 

 That's why I wanted to marry FBI/Police/Secret Service.
My career is communications and I need to re brand my resume and put my blog on there for an explanation of my life. This shouldn't be a necessary thing to do but, I must think differently to get a different result!


Your phone has been on call forwarding and every second you cannot change it but, it rolls to their phone so "THEY" can talk to them.  I never get any of the calls I am suppose to get just like the Dolphin Caller from Cali I was suppose to get that career.  Went on three interviews all to find no call backs or did I did I get a call back and it went through to the other sister?  Why do they get my calls, why do they get my pay checks?  Why do my calls go to other women who are only half siblings with a marriage.

What kind of family am I in Lois Pence there are two of her I swear to God, and Two Gilbert Pence's what kind of world am I living in? This is crazy, this is insanity, this is the end of the world as we know it, and I don't feel fine.  I am as you know on the strongest medications for the reasons above this line and paragraph.  I have one set of parents that try to help and one set that try to destroy.

For those with Mental Health:
From the mind of a clinical psychologist with advocacy to PTSD and Complex Trauma.  What to make of it : Understanding and Treatment to Complex PTSD

Langberg, Diane, Clinical Psychologist, Global Trauma Recovery Institute, 19 Jan. 19. https://youtu.be/otxAuHG9hKo

For our Officers Wives and Husbands:

Wilson, Dionne "After my husband was murdered" | | TEDxSanQuentin. 19 January 19

https://youtu.be/USSLb-nOsRA

For our Veterans:
What happens when you are stressed to the max what will happen.  A Ted Talks by John Rig

a way to an alternative pharmaceutical industry.

Rigg, John "The effect of trauma on the brain and how it affects behaviors" | TEDxAugusta, 19 Jan. 19.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m9Pg4K1ZKws

For the ones behind the scenes: Hostage and Negotiation Groups and Organizations:

Tillema, Scott. "The Secrets of Hostage Negotiators" | TEDxNaperville 19 January 19.

https://youtu.be/4CNRmhleJmk


What you can do when your a hostage?

Kohlrieser, George A hostage negotiator teaches leadership through bonding |  | TEDxFultonStreet. 19 January 19. https://youtu.be/k9Z9z_Fd3Bw

Hunt, Charles  "What Trauma Taught Me About Resilience"  | TEDxCharlotte 19 January 19. https://youtu.be/3qELiw_1Ddg

Make your disability claim go away! Get your LIFE BACK!

For all those who are in chronic pain and chronic fatigue I have a possible answer for you.  For all those who have overcome and are overcoming fibromyalgia

(Articles that have hyper links see the link as its source reference two authors are listed below)

 Years of Major Research compiles the information from doctors, research, and experience all comes down to Today!

10 Million Americans have this excruciating pain; Let me guess you cannot do much throughout the day and simple tasks like going to the bathroom, taking a shower, making your bed, or standing for periods of time are like the most impossible things to do because this just immobilizes you.  Not until I met Dr. Sonreal, from the Chanhassen Park Nicollet did I really find answers.  

It was in 2011 when I found out that I had ADHD/ADD my learning comprehension was at 30 Percent of 100.  By book standards I shouldn't of even graduated high school, much alone yet made it through college.  I still am really finding it hard to read books and might get 15 minuets a day if I try but, that's about it.  They put me on adderalle for that and its been shown to help me severely.  It helps me keep my PTSD under control to take the edge off of things.

Where do you start when do you know what to do anymore because the pain you have just exhausts you.  You didn't sign up for this, its like a life sentence that you don't deserve.  You look for answers, you look for help, you turn to anyone who might be able to give you clues on what to do to conquer this.

Mine developed after college loosing a major job with the NOKIA corporation / Marketsource I hit a rock bottom depression and haven't since recovered its gotten worse.  You have gone to college for four years all to be let go because I had a PTSD attack a guy was watching pornography and I said one profanity and that was it; he never got in trouble and was able to keep his career.

They have found that our lifestyle and events could add up to what we know as one of the biggest pain disorders/disabilities known to man.  Its something in our central nervous system and as, I did some research on articles of the United Kingdom they would refer to it as, "Cancer of the Nerves".  I want to do more of a study on "Cancer of the Nerves" and Fibro because I feel there is a correlation and if we can find that a disability claim might give to the result of a faster decision.  We can look to this article for more information of what I am talking about.

As a result, I was in a major car accident and had major soft tissue damage or cancer of the nerves.  It was a crash that was double prongs a side swipe from making a lane change and being parked at a major highway and perpendicular to the highway a diagonal t bone crack of a Ferrari going 168 mph.  My car spun out of control from the lane change and I blacked out not knowing if I was going to live.  This flared my fibro and soft tissues out of control.  The Journal of the American Pain Society has correlated this with Stress which is most often times disguised as TRAUMA.
The Pain and Nerve Correlation Explained; Stress & Trauma

A journal article from the National Center for Biotechnology Information, U.S. National Library of Medicine 
claims, "Fibromyliasya is a chronic pain disorder of which the clinical features such as persistent fatigue and sleep disorder may be a secondary consequence."Lawson K1.  

Tricyclic antidepressants and fibromyalgia: what is the mechanism of action?https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/12387704

So then what can we make of all this fancy talk and jargon.  Well, having other issues that creep up I feel my theory of Fibromyliasya has three prongs or three components like a triangle.  We have I wish I could draw this out but; I'll do my best to explain such a complex disability.  Most of my life I have fraught this with working out but, it go to the point that it just kept me from doing almost anything.

Because my career to a sink I found myself in Retail; this added to the extra pain in my body.  The harder I would look for jobs or a career the worse it got.  Nothing worked until I tried to get in with retail.  It was as if something outside of my ability and power was trying to control my every move, thought, and experience.  Some sinister force flex over my life and my destiny had put this on my body.

What is a Tricyclic according to the Mayo Clinic?

Here is the ABSTRACT from the article above that you can further look at but, I'll do my best to explain the basics of it.

"Fibromyalgia is a chronic pain disorder of which other clinical features, such as persistent fatigue and disordered sleep, may be a secondary consequence. The initial pharmacological approach to treating the disorder is the management of the pain. Tricyclic antidepressants are the most effective drugs in use so far, especially when administered in combination with other therapies (e.g., selective serotonin re-uptake inhibitors), which suggests modulation of the neurotransmitters serotonin and noradrenaline. The effectiveness of amitriptyline and related tricyclic antidepressants, however, is consistent with the involvement of mechanisms, such as potassium channel modulation and NMDA receptor antagonism, in addition to or in place of the modulation of monoamine neurotransmitters. Investigation of the importance of each of the pharmacological properties of amitriptyline and related molecules in the management of fibromyalgia could provide clues for the rational design of new drugs."Lawson K1.

When they say "chronic" its exactly what it really is no jokes, no laughing allowed its real and it will really stop you in your tracks like -30 below.  So we look to really in essence pain management and address it from here. You can do that in three ways:  Working out, Natural Supplements, and Pharmacology approaches.  So you can hit this from a couple of angles a holistic approach and a medicine approach.  Using both and seem to conquer it all and I do not recommend having children it will make this disability unconquerable. leaving you in tears that overflow like Niagara Falls. 

You are probably by this time wondering what is KVV trying to tell you in all this scientific jargon.  Well, I never took chemistry but, these types of pharmaceuticals do work and you will have to try some to find out which ones work the best.   Our Neurotransmitters also have a big responsibility in the way our body combats any type of abnormality in the brain or chemistry. 

 Do NOT TAKE SSRIs they do not work they only work with the neurotransmitter "Serotonin" which controls sleep.  Dopamine controls our happiness factor and energy and Noraepinephrine is responsible for alertness and energy.  Personally, I suffer from lack of energy so I want to focus on a SNRI which involves the transaction of my neurotransmitter Noranepherine. I have tried many of these and have found that I may have not been on a strong enough dose but, often times they will try amitriptyline, cytobenzlprine, nortatripline, and gedon.  Gedon, is one of the strongest Trycyclics to conquer many things for me; Depression, Anxiety, PTSD, and ADHD.  Its chemical structure allows for multiple dimensions of healing. 

As  a result, personally I find SNRI's more effective and the Mayo clinic has done study on it as well.  They claim, " Serotonin and norepinephrine reuptake inhibitors (SNRIs) are a class of medications that are effective in treating depression. SNRIs are also sometimes used to treat other conditions, such as anxiety disorders and long-term (chronic) pain, especially nerve pain. SNRIs may be helpful if you have chronic pain in addition to depression."

Serotonin and norepinephrine reuptake inhibitors 

A deeper look into the neurotransmitters from the Mayo Clinic

Now, after looking at the article from the Mayo Clinic you may want to google on your own SNRI and SSRI and you will find a plethora of information to help you figure out this article.  It takes understanding of the disability to conquer it and for me research is something that which I enjoy and will hopefully helped inform you today after reading this blog. 


MY Rx for Fibromyalgia:
A. Gym workout Goal:  90Min. Cardio; treadmill, bike, precore,  Choose Arms, Legs, Back/Chest workout with machines or free weights, and 20 min stretching. 

B.  Supplements: Supplements that I find effective are going to be used to conjure "Fatigue" look up things that fight fatigue in a google search and you will find a laundry list.  The best thing is to try a combination of them to see what works best.  Personally, I have found a list of supplements and with the goal of weight loss and pain management it does have the ability to work.  If you go to the Vitamin Shopp or GNC there is a big book for Health and a Protocol for Fibro/ Fatigue/Chronic Pain ect., that you can use. 

 What's effective for one may not work for another.  After careful research I have purchased these supplements for myself for fighting Fibro, chronic pain, fatigue and, Weight Loss individually but as a whole collectively.   Before using supplements you will want to talk with your doctor to make sure there are no drug interactions.  For example, I cannot take Rohidola as it will interfere with the Tricyclics. 

Inflammation
We must first look to the supplements that will fight inflammation.  After all this is an inflammation disorder that affects a large mass of the body.  To reduce inflammation we try to stay away from ibuprofen but, if you take the off brands like equate 200mg take 3 pills with a glass of Tropicana to put your stomach and body back in its place.   See this blog to look at the correlation of Omega's and inflammation. 

The Benefits of Omega-3 Fatty Acids.  I recommend Carlson Wild Caught Super Omega-3, 1200mg x 3 up to 5000mg you can take to reduce inflammation. This is a Laundry List to the right of the blog to help with pain management

Fatigue Fighters and Weight Loss
Green Tea. COq10. Multi-Vitamins. B-Complex. CLA. Rasberry Keytons. HydroxyCutPlatinum. Cinnamon. and Chroium.

Another great blog from "Food Matters" a non- caffeine approach
Kill Pain With these products

My goal is that by time you are done reading all these articles and take notes you will be on your way to wiping your disability claim away.  Its possible to fight the pain and have a victory!  We look to people like Derrek Redmod for inspiration.  The first time I watched this I cried my eyes out but, let it be motivation for you to "KEEP GOING"!

Dreams all come down to one moment

C. Pharmacology of my life includes a cocktail of these drugs: They all work together to help each other; some might experience heart issues if they take Gedon and Effexor my stress tests have passed with amazing results.  This is my dose after being on them for 2 years: No side affects, no really any weight gain, and the ability to live a normal livable life.  One might make assumptions if they look these drugs up but they treat: Depression, Anxiety, PTSD, and ADD/ADHD.  Write out the chemical structures and you have a master cocktail! 

1. Gedon 80mg 2x per day
2.  Adderalle 30mg, 2x per day split
3.  Hydroxazine 50mg 2x per day
 I prefer this over Xanax a "benzo"
4.  Ability 15mg
5. Effexor 225mg
6. Birth Control Levogerteral



Sources:

Any hyperlink please use its http address as a source site reference.

Treatment options and patient perspectives in the management of fibromyalgia: future trends.

Lawson K.Neuropsychiatr Dis Treat. 2008 Dec; 4(6):1059-71.

American Pain Society. "Fibromyalgia Pain Linked To Central Nervous System Dysfunction." ScienceDaily. ScienceDaily, 18 February 2009. <www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2009/02/090217123124.htm>.

RESENTMENTS every alcoholic has them but, mine take the CAKE!

This is a different example a movie that show cases a "DREAM WORLD"
IS the CIA creating a DREAM World to make it Real?
How did you get Here?

ENOUGH OF THE JOY PENCE'S THERE IS AND WILL ONLY BE ONE; STOP TRYING TO BE KATHERINE VICTORIA VANANDERLAND

AUDREY FALDICH AND I ARE SISTERS ; THE REAL VANANDERLANDS; LEAVE US ALONE STOP THE BULLSHIT STOP IT NOW!

STOP THE BULLSHIT; STOP IT NOW!

STOP THE BULLSHIT; STOP IT NOW!

STOP THE BULLSHIT; STOP IT NOW!

STOP THE BULLSHIT; STOP IT NOW!

re·sent·ment according to google search says:

/rəˈzentmənt/

noun

1. bitter indignation at having been treated unfairly.

   
   

   "his resentment at being demoted"

   
   

   synonyms:

   bitterness, indignation, irritation, pique, displeasure, dissatisfaction, disgruntlement, discontentment, discontent, resentfulness, bad feelings, hard feelings, ill feelings, acrimony, rancor, animosity, hostility, jaundice, antipathy, antagonism, enmity,

What would you do if you were being lied to about what happens on the other line of the telephone.  What if you knew people were using your intelligence against you to make you want to commit suicide?  What would you do if everyone made you the bottom of all jokes, the space goat, the punching bag?  What would you do if you noticed money missing from your account and wallet but, the police finally made a report of a payroll check that went missing.  Now a pay stub shows up in my car from the 12/8/18 how ironic was that stolen to out of my finger tips.  She took my identity for 19 years all to kill me and now Joy Melissa Pence doesn't exist; KVV IS KVV WITH AUDREYAINNA!

 What would you do if someone took your money from the CIA since you were one and able to talk like an adult.  What would you do if you knew someone had your money from being chronologically suspended? What would you do if you knew you were being abused by the CIA but, they just put you in the hospital when you tell them this.  What would you do if every turn you make your trapped, every time you try to open a new email or social media the passwords don't work.  What would you do if you caught them using an API network to monitor what your doing?  What would you do if they blackmailed you for telling you could of done what they did and lost the weight.  Why do I Have to be compared to all the rest!

 I AM AN INDIVIDUAL, WOMAN WHO HAS A VOICE, HEART, MIND, BODY AND SOUL AND WILL NOT TOLERATE ANYMORE OF YOUR BULLSHIT!  WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF YOU KNEW YOU WERE BEING LIED TO EVERY SINGLE DAY, AND BETTER YET FIVE YEARS AGO WERE TOLD HE WAS GOING TO GET A DIVORCE THEN FIND OUT HE DID AND MARRIED SOMEONE ELSE AND IS NOW WITH HER? BETRAYED BULLSHIT BECAUSE I WAS IN AN AUTO ACCIDENT AND LOST EVERYTHING AND GAINED 68 POUNDS THAT I AM TRYING TO SHAKE.

I barely have any money and all I get are lies from Ramsey Farah, I don't even know who he is anymore and, he works for the government.  I was a witness to four homicide events and he keeps coming back in the form of other people who have gotten plastic surgery. This is just a very sick and shallow way to get rid of someone and make them go crazy.

My record isn't that pretty and I need to get help to go back to school now everyone and their brother sister child has a 'go fund me' im sick of all the excess babies that are born, there are plenty of children that need homes.  I am sick of people pressuring me to have children and or in order to have anything they say I need to have a baby. This is a line of Bullshits finest and I WILL NOT STOOP TO THIS LEVEL OF IGNORANCE.

I am getting a restraining order put into play and will have it filed in Crow Wing County against, Ramsey Farah as J J REDEBAUGH.  I am sick of people telling me he paid money to be with me bullshit, I am sick of people telling me what to do. I am sick of all the lies, the deceit, the killing of men all so someone can live their lifestyle in the CIA.  This is Bullshit, and I hope Officer Captain Hall will read this and make some shit happen as the Director of Operations something needs to happen or I will press charges with the FBI for False Representation!

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF YOU HAD PEOPLE KEPT SAYING "YOU WEREN'T SUPPOSE TO LIVE THIS LONG" 

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF PEOPLE KEPT TELLING YOU 'YOU WERN'T SUPPOSE TO LIVE THIS LONG' AND THE PEOPLE YOU LIVE WITH LIE, CHEAT, AND STEAL YOUR MIND?

WHAT WOULD YOU DO?

WHAT WOULD YOU DO?

WHAT WOULD YOU DO?

WHAT IS IT GOING TO TAKE TO PUT THEM IN JAIL?

WHAT IS IT GOING TO TAKE TO PUT THEM IN JAIL? 

WHAT IS IT GOING TO TAKE TO PUT THEM IN JAIL?

3 PEOPLE IMPERSONATING 1 MAN; ON THE OTHER SIDE POLICE TRYING TO PUT AN END TO THIS BULLSHIT THAT HAS TAKEN OVER THE COUNTRY OF LIES, DECEIT, FALSE HOPE, SUICIDE, DEPRESSION, ANXIETY, PTSD, UNWANTED TRIPS TO THE HOSPITAL, MEDICATIONS I WAS NEVER ON,  MENTAL HEALTH CODES THAT I NEVER HAD BEFORE UNTIL THIS BULLSHIT NOW! THEY SAY THEY ARE RAMSEY FARAH, ONE FAMILY TRYING TO LIVE THE OTHER'S LIFESTYLE ITS REDEBAUGHS TRYING TO BE LIKE THE FARAH'S:  I AM TIRED OF REPORTING HOMICIDE!

I am writing my way out of court ....January 2019

I am putting together a guide for people with low income and the above link has multiple options for one who needs to seek public assistance when in legal trouble.  Information gathered here today and any day that has been read was taken from a google search.  Most often times words defined by google, Wikipedia, and government source documents. 

Resource Guide for Legal Problems Minnesota Crow Wing County
(https://mn.gov/law-library/assets/Crow%20Wing%20County_tcm1041-78736.pdf)

Application for Public Defender File with County Court Administration
http://www.mncourts.gov/mncourtsgov/media/CourtForms/PD-Application-Form-Aug-2012.pdf?ext=.pdf

Format for the Answer
https://www.northwestregisteredagent.com/pdf/Answer-Example.pdf

Rhetoric and the Law
https://scholarworks.gsu.edu/cgi/viewcontent.cgi?referer=https://www.google.com/&httpsredir=1&article=1011&context=english_hontheses

Ambiguity and Misunderstanding the Law
http://idiom.ucsd.edu/~schane/law/ambiguity.pdf


Plausable Answers and Affirmative Defenses
https://open.mitchellhamline.edu/cgi/viewcontent.cgi?referer=https://www.google.com/&httpsredir=1&article=1198&context=facsch

report of the R. statutes
https://www.leg.state.mn.us/docs/2010/mandated/101380.pdf

PLEA: A continuance for dismissal 

Charge: 169.09.5 given on December, 29th 2018.  The ticket was filed after the accident report to the police with in 24 hours they called my home to follow up.  This then would be "reasonable" time frame to give a formal answer for a report.  This court arraignment was processed January 9th 2019, after the crash and sent to 10722 Earl Drive N. Nisswa, Minnesota.  This is a clear sign that the courts either made a mistake or foul play was involved.

Minnesota Statutes States:

Subd. 5.Notify owner of damaged property.

If the driver of any vehicle involved in a collision knows or has reason to know the collision resulted only in damage to fixtures legally upon or adjacent to a highway, the driver shall take reasonable steps to locate and notify the owner or person in charge of the property of that fact, of the driver's name and address, and of the registration plate number of the vehicle being driven and shall, upon request and if available, exhibit the driver's license, and make an accident report in every case. The report must be made in the same manner as a report made pursuant to subdivision 7.

Subd. 5a.Driver deemed agent of owner.

 

Whenever any motor vehicle shall be operated within this state, by any person other than the owner, with the consent of the owner, express or implied, the operator thereof shall in case of accident, be deemed the agent of the owner of such motor vehicle in the operation thereof.

(b) On determining that the original report of any driver of a vehicle involved in an accident of which report must be made as provided in this section is insufficient, the commissioner of public safety may require the driver to file supplementary information.

"Upon Request and If Available" - Conditional tenses are used to speculate about what could happen, what might have happened, and what we wish would happen.  It is also the case of informal logic to connotative appropriation. It then is a "False Dilemma" states, "A false dilemma is a type of informal fallacy in which something is falsely claimed to be an "either/or" situation, when in fact there is at least one additional option. A false dilemma can arise intentionally, when a fallacy is used in an attempt to force a choice or outcome." According to Sanford Schane, "I shall analyze three court cases claimed to contain "ambiguity" or "ambiguous words". 2 The claims are appropriate for the general meaning of these terms. Otherwise, the three cases of so-called "ambiguity" turn out to be quite different. One of them exemplifies the restricted meaning of ambiguity, whereas the other two present problems of reference and of vagueness." (Google, False dilemma, 2019).

REBUTTAL to Statute 169.09.5  "Syntactic ambiguity" of the word "Reasonable"

Syntactical ambiguity is a structural or grammatical ambiguity of a whole sentence that occurs in a sub-part of a sentence (Reilly 1991; Walton 1996).  Syntactical ambiguity is a grammatical construct, and results from the difficulty of applying universal grammatical laws to sentence structure. The rule of lenity (also called the rule of strict construction) is a principle of criminal statutory interpretation that requires a court to apply any unclear or ambiguous law in the manner most favorable to the defendant.  My Strict Construction of the word "Reasonable" would be that of 24 hours to notify police due to no injury and that of only property. The term reasonable is a generic and relative one and applies to that which is appropriate for a particular situation. In the law of Negligence, the reasonable person standard is the standard of care that a reasonably prudent person would observe under a given set of circumstances.  Thus, if he wouldn't of called me I had plans on calling in the report the following day realizing the implications of it. (Google, Reasonable, 2019).

We agree that the Minnesota No-Fault Act serves an important remedial purpose. But its remedial purpose is not relevant unless we conclude that Minn. Stat. § 169.09, subd. 5a, is ambiguous. Accordingly, we must first determine whether Minn.Stat. § 169.09, subd. 5a, and Minn.Stat. § 65B.49, subd. 5a(i)(2) are ambiguous as applied to the facts of this case. "A statute is only ambiguous when the language therein is subject to more than one reasonable interpretation." See Schroedl, 616 N.W.2d at 277 (citation omitted).

We have previously concluded in section B, supra, that section 65B.49, subd. 5a(i)(2) is not ambiguous, and therefore does not fall within the reach of section (b)(2). Thus, we must examine whether Minn. Stat. § 169.09, subd. 5a is ambiguous. It provides:

Whenever any motor vehicle shall be operated within this state, by any person other than the owner, with the consent of the owner, express or implied, the operator thereof shall in case of accident, be deemed the agent of the owner of such motor vehicle in the operation thereof."Reasonable time refers to the amount of time that is fairly required to do whatever is required to be done, conveniently under the permitted circumstances. Reasonable time. Reasonable time is that amount of time which is fairly necessary, conveniently, to do whatever is required to be done, as soon as circumstances permit. This phrase is a U.S. legal term that has been a topic of controversy for many years. Although the context may reduce or negate the ambiguity, syntactically the request is ambiguous." (Reasonable, google, 2019). 

This statute has consistently been interpreted as creating vicarious liability as to vehicle owners when none existed at common law. See, e.g., Shuck v. Means,302 Minn. 93, 96, 226 N.W.2d 285, 287 (1974) (explaining that the purpose of Minn.Stat. § 170.54 (1974), now codified at Minn.Stat. § 169.09, subd. 5a, was to make vehicle owners liable when "no such liability would otherwise exist, giving ... injured persons more certainty of recovery by encouraging owners to obtain appropriate liability insurance"); see also Kangas v. Winquist, 207 Minn. 315, 316-17, 291 N.W. 292, 293 (1940) (explaining that the purpose of 3 Mason Minn. St.1938 Supp. § 2720-104, now codified at Minn.Stat. § 169.09, subd. 5a, was to impose vicarious liability on vehicle owners for the tortious acts of permissive drivers).
(101380 pdf, Meyer v. Nwokedi, 777 N.W.2d 218 (Minn. 2010).Google Statutes, 2019).

Description of the case: Personal Testimony
I recently was in an accident on the 26th of December 2018 right after the snow storm m car was filled with condensation on the inside of the vehicle.  My sight was limited as the window was fogging up even with the defrost on.  My car struck the median which in turn ran over the sign on the median of the road.

After, hitting the sign I knew I was okay and, didn't report the accident right a way.  My intention was to report it once I got home but, was side tracked and forgot.  This is the classic "Unforeseen Circumstances" that led to the incident.

My ticket given for “Failure to Report Accident” on December 27th 2019.  The conditions of the road were poor along with my visibility and interior window was covered in frost.  My intent that night was to go to the Baxter Target CVS Pharmacy and pick up my prescription.

As a result, of the conditions of the roads and my vehicle I hit a sign on the road at the intersection of Wise Road and 371.  My intent was not that to hit the sign, I simply had a “Mistake of Law” that my genuine intention was that to just pick up my medication. It was an unintentional accident that resulted in not calling the police right away.  I wasn’t hurt at the scene of the Accident and, a citizen called it in.  I had not malicious intent to cause property damage and was not out to hurt anyone or anything. 

My motive wasn’t to escape the law but simply report it at a later time.  Then, the next day the Baxter Police did follow up with me on the phone and we went over the accident and a report was filed.  I didn’t intend to do something illegal and simply made a genuine mistake to report the crime.  My Mental State was unclear; My ADHD was struggling because I was out of prescription, and had a unclear mind to focus.

I had causation to not make a crime intentional and I had no motive to break the law.

There is a correlation to the accident with inclement weather making conditions bad.  I was in shock and, kept going because, I was on my way to pick up Prescription for my ADHD.

Mitigating Circumstances for this offense include but, are not limited:

1. Mental Health - ADHD played a role in the attention to the road
2. Lack of a poor criminal record - No major Violations (i.e. Felony). The defendant doesn’t have a criminal record, or only has a relatively minor record.
3. Unusual Circumstance - The defendant committed the crime because of temporary emotional difficulty or significant provocation.
4. The Crime was an accident; and had proper road conditions and car conditions the accident wouldn't of happened.
5. No harm. The defendant didn’t hurt anyone and committed the crime in a manner unlikely to cause harm.
6. History of Abuse  The defendant has a testimony that would make you use 100 Kleenex boxes.
7. Difficult Personal History  The defendant has a relationship with a government worker "Classified"

37 Mitigating Factors you can use

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A Theory to Consider based on Torts

This is taken from the above "A Theory to Consider based on Torts"

"The court’s decision to relieve a negligent tortfeasor of liability is highly fact-intensive and varies from case to case. However, it may be helpful to list several of the most common cases on either side of this doctrine, in order to gauge how a court might interpret a certain set of facts."

100 Reasons for Affirmative Defense's

Explanation of Affirmative Defense's

MY DEFENSE:

1. I have the affirmative defense of an "intervening cause"

"An intervening cause is an event that occurs after a tort feasor's initial act of negligence and causes injury/harm to a victim. An intervening cause will generally absolve the tort feasor of liability for the victim's injury only if the event is deemed a superseding cause." (Intervening Cause, Google, 2019). 

"A superseding cause is an unforeseeable intervening cause. By contrast, a foreseeable intervening cause typically does not break the chain of causality, meaning that the tort feasor is still responsible for the victim's injury—unless the event leads to an unforeseeable result."  (Superseding cause, Google, 2019).

"An Accident is an unfortunate, unforeseen and unplanned event or circumstance, usually resulting in an unfavorable outcome." (Accident, Google, 2019)

"In tort law, a defendant can only be held liable for injuring a plaintiff if the defendant’s negligence caused the plaintiff’s injuries. There must be a direct link between the negligent behavior and the injury so that the behavior is both the cause in fact and the proximate cause of the injury."

As a result, I did not injure the plaintiff as it was a road sign furthermore; I did have proximate cause in this circumstance.  According to Wikipedia it states: "n law, a proximate cause is an event sufficiently related to an injury that the courts deem the event to be the cause of that injury. There are two types of causation in the law: cause-in-fact, and proximate cause. " 
(All taken from Google; Proximate cause, cause-in-fact, 2019). 

EXAMPLE by http://www.rotlaw.com/legal-library/ What is Anecdotal Evidence....

What is an "intervening or superseding cause"?

Because causation must exist for the defendant to face liability, a defendant may argue that an intervening cause broke the link between the defendant’s behavior and the plaintiff’s injury. The intervening cause must occur between the defendant’s negligent act and the plaintiff’s injury, and it must have caused injury to the plaintiff.

For instance, suppose that a mechanic at an auto shop accidentally spills some gasoline in the parking lot, but he fails to clean it up.  A customer walking across the parking lot flicks a lit cigarette butt, which hits the gasoline, resulting in a fire that burns the customer. The mechanic may raise the affirmative defense that the lit cigarette the customer dropped was an intervening cause that broke the chain between the mechanic’s spill and the customer’s burns.

The lit cigarette meets the definition of an intervening cause: it occurred between the mechanic’s spill and the customer’s burn injuries, and it caused the customer to be injured. However, the defendant will not be able to escape liability unless the intervening cause is also a superseding cause.

Like an intervening cause,  a superseding cause occurs between the defendant’s action and the plaintiff’s injury, and it is also responsible for the injury. However, a superseding cause is also one that the defendant could not have reasonably foreseen.

In the example above, the mechanic may still be held liable for the customer’s injuries because a fire caused by the spilled gasoline was foreseeable. The mechanic could have reasonably foreseen that spilled gasoline might catch fire and injure anyone in the parking lot, including customers. Here, the lit cigarette is an intervening cause, but it is not a superseding cause.

By contrast, suppose that the customer flicked a lit cigarette near the gasoline spill, but was not burned by the flames. Instead, the customer is so startled by the sudden fire that he has a heart attack. Here, the lit cigarette is most likely a superseding cause of the injury, because the mechanic would not have reasonably foreseen that a gasoline spill would result in a heart attack.

To relieve the defendant of liability, the intervening or superseding cause must be unforeseeable in most cases. However, three exceptions exist. First, a foreseeable intervening cause may still eliminate the defendant’s liability if the intervening cause was an intentional tortor action by another party. For example, if the customer in the parking lot had deliberately dropped a match into the gasoline spill, the mechanic would not be liable for the resulting burn injures. Similarly, a criminal act may intervene to relieve the defendant of liability even if the crime was foreseeable.

Finally, a defendant may escape liability if a third person with the ability to fix the condition that will lead to injury sees the condition but does not fix it. For example, suppose that the manager of the garage sees the gasoline spill, but does not clean it up or have one of the garage’s employees clean it up. In this case, the manager, not the mechanic, may be liable for the defendant’s injuries. The manager may also be liable under a premises liability theory for failing to protect customers from dangerous conditions in the parking lot, such as gasoline puddles.

2.  "Cause" and Effect Outcome of the Crash

The road conditions were bad and made visibility and driving conditions worse that impacted the accident to be unpreventable under unforeseen circumstances; not anticipated or predicted. Cause-in-effect; But for the action, the result would not have happened if the roads wouldn't of been icy and my window wouldn't of been fogged up. It is also known as legal cause; As a result then they must have; an essential condition; a thing that is absolutely necessary or "sine qua non".  Mine was that of the road conditions, my mental state, and the vehicles conditions didn't allow for me to avoid the road sign. (Sine qua non, Google, 2019).

3. Mistake of Law's definition: "Mistake of law is a legal principle referring to one or more errors that were made by a person in understanding how the applicable law applied to their past activity that is under analysis by a court. In jurisdictions that use the term, it is differentiated from mistake of fact."  I thought that you had 24 hours to report a crime or accident.  (Mistake of Law, Google, 2019).

"Mistake of fact” generally refers to a mistaken understanding by someone as to the facts of a situation—the mistake results in the person committing an illegal act.  Mistake of fact is a defense to a crime where the mistaken belief, if it were true, would negate a mental state that's an element of the crime." (Mistake of Fact, Google, 2019).

As a result, I was on the way to pick up my medication for my ADHD which does get in the way of my driving.  I was cited a ticket in Bloomington for Speeding and this was due to my medication wearing off and not being cognizant to my speed. My mental state then would be under consideration to be a solid defense to hitting of the road sign. 

The defense of mistake of law raises a issue. The first issue occurs where, because of a mistake of law, the defendant did not have the requisite intent to commit a crime. Thus, It was not my intent to hit the sign and thought that I could report it the next business day because I didn't have any injuries. 

4. Causation - states, "n other words, causation provides a means of connecting conduct with a resulting effect, typically an injury. In criminal law, it is defined as the actus reus (an action) from which the specific injury or other effect arose and is combined with mens rea (a state of mind) to comprise the elements of guilt." (Causation, Google, 2019). 
A. My state of mind was not solid as I could not focus on the road I ended up crashing into the sign.  B. The road conditions were also a reason why the crash occurred.  
C. The action then was the crash of the sign on the median that was struck due to mind/road complications. 

Causation and Correlation
As a result, this proves, "correlation proves causation" is considered a questionable cause logical fallacy when two events occurring together are taken to have established a cause-and-effect relationship”.  One wouldn’t have happened without the other.  My lack to report the crime was a result of wanting to pick up my prescription before they closed to be properly medicated the next business day.

5. Defense of Necessity with the Affirmative Defense:

Defense of property is a justification defense by the defendant that s/he should not be held liable because the action was taken in defense of the defendant's premises or personal property. 

The circumstances that caused the action were that of:
A. Bad road conditions
B. Bad visibility out of car
C. Not properly medicated "Mental State"

(Affirmative Defense Necessity, Google, 2019).
I should not be held liable for my actions as a crime because my conduct was necessary to prevent some greater harm and when that conduct is not excused under some other more specific provision of law such as self defense because of these four reasons:

1. I reasonably believed my actions were necessary to prevent imminent harm.
2. There was no practical alternative available for avoiding the harm.
3. I did not cause the threat of harm in the first place.
4. The damage caused was less than the harm that would have occurred otherwise.

I have shown the following Burdens of Proof in my research with Google, Government Websites, and Journal Articles.
The three types are:

• Preponderance of evidence.
• Clear and convincing evidence.
• Beyond reasonable doubt. (Burden of Proof, Google, 2019).

As a Result: